.be happy for this moment.this moment is your life.

Only 2 more days of hell and then I am free for almost 3 weeks (i think)!!! so so incredibly excited.

I guess i should fill you guys in on something that happened a couple nights ago...even though you wouldn't be impressed...

I went to see "he who must not be named" on monday night, just to see him b4 he left b/c he is moving to calgary, and will be going to sait in september. I know you guys all think that after the messyness of the *other girl* it was over...but i did alot of thinking during my "week of grieving" (for lack of anything else to call it). Once again, as much as i wanted to hate him and never hear from him again...there was just something about him that i didn't want to lose, and if you ask me what is it, i really couldn't tell you. I have no idea, but the fact that i can talk to him about pretty much everything i think has something to do with it. I honestly don't know. So anyway...I have it under control, and i know that nothing at this point in time could happen b/w us. He has a bunch of sh*t still going on in his life, and i think we just met at the wrong time to be anything but friends.

So, we were talking on msn, and he was like, "we have to get together b4 i leave", so i said, ok, and that i had exams from wednesday on (and he is moving on friday or sat), so it would have to be monday or tues. So monday, i ended up going to his place to help him pack (and im going to tell you right now NOTHING HAPPENED, so get that thought out of your head right now). I actually did help him do some packing, and i heard the full story of the *other girl*. And up until then i wanted to hate her for taking him away, but now i have no reason. She graduated high school at 16 and would have finished her BSc this weekish (if it wasn't for what i'm about to tell you). She was dating this guy for a while, and then he started beating her and such, but it was the point in the relationship where she thought it was something she did, so she stayed. Eventually she broke it off with him, but apparently he came back sometime last week, and told her to pack a couple bags. She told him no, so he did it for her, and then pulled her out to his car. They drove for a long time apparently, to some remote house somewhere, and he wouldn't let her leave (apparently he had ppl guarding the door so she couldn't get out). *as an aside, I know this sounds far fetched, but i see no reason for him to lie, unless she is lying to him*. She had her cell so she was apparently calling *he who must not be named* alot and filling him in. So this terrible boyfriend took her out for dinner, the night i was at *he who must not be named*'s place, and she was planning to crawl out the window in the bathroom there. (oh, this boyfriend has friends in the police force, so her going to them would do no good). Apperently he walked her to the bathroom at the restaurant (which turned out to be in Banff), and then she climbed out the window in a long dress and stillettos and called the RCMP. She's had people guarding her since then, and apparently she's moving around for the next 6 months and changing her name.

So there you have it, and that is all i can tell you, considering anyone can read this, and it is also pretty much all i know anyway.

Oh, we also watched spaceballs (which i hadn't seen), and now i FINALLY understand the meaning of *ludicrious speed* (how many years have we been using it at camp without me knowign where it came from?)

That is all...i must get back to my studying,

chow.

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I have been studying for almost a week straight...and i didn't even procrastinate to the point where i wrote here instead of studying. I'm quite proud of me, but i figured you guys might appreciate an update...

So my bday celebrations were quite a blast. Dinner at earls with the girls, and even though it turned out not to be belini night, it was still a blast. Then tash kat and I went out to the standard (there is a pic below), which was a total blast! All these guys kept hitting on tasha, and then she'd break their hearts, by telling them she had a bf...but of course after they bought her a drink...lol. Close to the end of the night, theses 3 guys came and hung out with us (sure one of them hit on tasha a bit) for the rest of the night...and i worked my magic and got us a ride home. This guys car had a freaking tv screen on the dashboard!!! it was awesome!! They dropped us off, and the one guy (who i thought was pretty hot) was like, oh we'll be at escape (another bar) on saturday. So we were like alright, but didn't really commit to anything. Then i told the girls that i thought the one guy was cute, and tasha was like "I can't believe you didn't tell me!!!" (not that i really had a chance), and so she and i ended up going to escape to see if they were there...however they didn't show up (by the time we left, which was early, but we didn't want to pay cab back - go city transit!!), which was sad, but escape was a blast...its actually pretty classy (well decorated i guess).

That has been my excitement for the week...other than that study study study....grrr

only 4 days till freedom!!! man i can't wait!!

{please leave me comments guys, even if its just a hi...i mean, what else am i supposed to do when i get sick of studying!?!!}

ps : apparently i look hammered in this pic, when really that was 1 drink...either a bad camera angle, or i was in the process of blinking.

Me, Katherine and Tasha at the standard oh yeah!!! 

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I really like the messages that those dove commercials send out - that you don't have to be skinny and blonde to be beautiful...and yet our society just doesn't get it. There was an article in the paper today about their one "fat or fab" ad...and really the girl in that ad, i would definetly not consider fat. Basically, they took a poll of people in toronto's opinion or her (as in she was "fat" or "fab") and the majority of people called her "fat". Now, i realize our society has an obsession with being skinny - but have you ever noticed how females seem to get the brunt of it? honestly, people care more (i'm not saying only) about females being skinny than males. You don't usually see anythign about any famous males apparent weight problems in the media. Apparently even brintney spears has a "belly" in some form or another right now, and the objective of some show that kirsty alley is in/producing is for her to lose a certian amount of weight in order to keep it on the air. umm, excuse me? since when was britney even close to being a healthy weight? I just can't see what has happened to our society that makes us believe we have to be skinny to be beautiful. What happened to the curvy marilyn monroe image of the past? Which brings up another point - i know guys seem kinda shallow, and just want "hot" girls...but (maybe this is just wishful thinking on my part) wouldn't you think guys have different views of what they see as hot? or are they just settling for something, b/c they have tried to do "better" and failed? If the latter is NOT the case, then how else do you explain normal average people dating and marrying and reproducing with other normal average people?

as kinda an aside, I'm sure some of you have heard of the ladder theory...but if not - read it here: http://www.intellectualwhores.com/masterladder.html I'm interested to see if you think it has any truth in it...b/c im kinda sitting on the fence about it. I mean, (after you read it, this will make sense) I can see myself having two so called ladders, but i'm still confused on the whole thing with guys being your friend without wanting sleep with you - i may have to read it again, to further this observation - but we'll see.

so really, why are we letting society decide what we should think is attractive. I mean, i know some, what i would call bigger girls (but not b/c they over eat and are "fat" - they are just bigger.), who i think are gorgeous...one in particular that comes to mind is in really good shape, played sports through high school - and yet some would call her fat, and think that she doesn't take care of herself, and eats unhealthly etc. What gives society the right to influence people so much that they judge to no end people without even knowing anything except what they can tell just from looking at a picture of someone?

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on a totally different topic - it finally looks like december here - though i'm not a fan of how cold it is!!!

My parents, brother and grandma came up this weekend to visit for my birthday, and to come to my band concert. My dad ended up getting me a new stereo for my birthday (i have had my old one for oh...7 or 8 years, and only one speaker works) which is so amazing! I love it!! and my mom cooked for me lasagna and garlic bread - oh man such good food. It was kinda funny - i ended up staying the night in the hotel with them on a cot in the room that my grandma was in...its kinda hard to explain but it was kinda like a sleepover with her - chatting for a few minutes in the dark (I can't really explain what it was like...it was just neat, i guess). My concert was alot of fun, we did really awesome, and she even gave the flute section a feature piece b/c there are so many of us (14) and we are just amazing lol. Anyway....now comes the fun part exam after exam...though not before i actually go out and celebrate my birthday this wednesday (which also happens to be lava's bday - happy bday hun!! i miss you!!!) at earls (mmm belini night!! ) and then out to the standard after!!! yay!

note to cascade: i will try and write you in my study "breaks" (aka procrastination), but if not, i will see you at christmas, and write you back in the new year - school has just been crazy lately...my hand just can't handle much extra writing right now...but i will try - i promise!!!!

"ode to the nice guys" http://www.stwing.upenn.edu/~jenf/writing/rant04.html

and the response:

"ode to the nice girls" http://fc.furman.edu/~kathleen.garber/

enjoy!


so it was about 10 above today in good old deadmonton, but by sunday it should be -18...thats almost a 30 degree difference!! ahhh i guess if it brings the snow i will be happy though!