.be happy for this moment.this moment is your life.

.... yeah I've been slacking off I know, but apparently no one really noticed/cared.

so, went to andrea's bday party last thursday. got pretty drunk and ate a lot of chocolate and spinach dip (had to make up for everything i couldn't have on my cleanse). Jaymes was there. kinda just didn't end up talking, but i wouldn't really say it was avoidance, more of just we were talking to different people the whole time, plus he was incredibly drunk before i even got there.

On friday morning, I did this biking fundraiser for our grad next year and the steadward centre (physical rehab place) at the uni. basically an hour long spinning class hungover, not my favorite thing, but i actually felt suprisingly good after - and i was not sore at all (kinda disappointing b/c i wanted to complain).

Then friday night went to play strip poker, and by strip i mean only down to the underwear, so not really that bad. It was the 1st time i have ever played poker, and i didn't lose that many items of clothing - 2 socks, my sweater and my t-shirt. I don't think i did too badly, but half the time i probably could have won more chips if i'd taken more chances. oh well. it was just for fun.

Debating hanging out (or trying to initiate hanging out) with Jaymes in the next week. don't really know how thats going to go, or if i'm even actually going to (hopefully i won't chicken out or w/e...i'm more thinking he will already be doing something else...) whatever - more time to study anat. which is killing me right now.

so hows that for the worse update and writing in general EVER. haha

oh, and i think i'm going to get my ear pierced again this weekend.

check this out...I guarantee it will keep you occupied for, well i'm not sure how long. just do it. haha

P.S. anyone know any lifeguards? put them in touch with me PLEASE!!!!

Sometimes...
when you cry... no one sees your tears.

Sometimes...
when you are in pain... no one sees your hurt.

Sometimes...
when you are worried... no one sees your stress.

Sometimes...
when you are happy... no one sees your smile.



- But FART!!
just ONE time.. And everybody knows!!

Gotcha!!
You thought it was going to be one of those heart-touching stories!

1. Men are like Laxatives ... They irritate the crap out of you.
2. Men are like Bananas ... The older they get, the less firm they are.
3. Men are like Weather ... Nothing can be done to change them.
4. Men are like Blenders ... You need One, but you're not quite sure why.
5. Men are like Chocolate Bars .... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.
6. Men are like Commercials ... You can't believe a word they say.
7. Men are like Department Stores ... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
8. Men are like Government Bonds ... They take soooooooo long to mature.
9. Men are like Mascara ... They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
10. Men are like Popcorn .... They satisfy you, but only for a little while.
11. Men are like Snowstorms ... You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.
12. Men are like Lava Lamps ... Fun to look at, but not very bright.
13. Men are like Parking Spots ... All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

yup, definitely jinxed things. I am once again single...suprise suprise. why did he have to be so honest and nice about it (not that i wanted him to be a jerk). I'm just effing upset (obviously). ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

To “some pipeline guy”…

I wish you didn’t see yourself that way, because, even if that is what you do, that doesn’t really make it who you are – at least in my opinion. Over the past month and a bit you have treated me better than any other guy up to the present. You have called regularly, even when you were going out with the guys, or had a tiring day. You are the first guy to actually listen to me when I talk, and be interested (or at least do a good job of pretending). We have had actual conversations about things that matter, and even though it is hard to get to know someone over the phone, I’d say we’ve done a pretty good job. When you are in town, which yes, isn’t often enough – but I’ll survive, we always have a good time, at least I think so. We’ve done more than just “dinner and a movie”, which I love. Don’t get me wrong there is nothing wrong with watching movies and just hanging out, but going to plays and to hear live music is amazing!

I know that sometimes it does just seem like a “booty call” when you are in town, but its not like that is all we do. In my inexperienced opinion, we do have something more than that – the foundation of a longer lasting relationship. I don’t believe in spending every living, breathing moment with a person – I don’t think you can without going a little crazy, and I also think that if you don’t spend time with your friends, you have a good chance of losing them.

Like I said, we have had real conversations about real things, and if you can’t talk with someone (as opposed to at them, or not at all for that matter), then there really isn’t anything other than the physical attraction. You treat me like a real person, with feelings, and thoughts, and not just like some chick (even if you do call most girls chicks…).

Maybe this is just dropping a cliché in there, but I really think I am learning things from you already, especially about myself. You definitely have some different experiences than me, but then again, I know there are things I’ve done that you haven’t also.

I do appreciate the respect you have toward me, and I know it is still early, but I don’t know if I agree with the whole thing that you don’t want to be the one to take my virginity. I get that you might feel guilty, if down the road I look back and think that I just lost it to some “pipeliner guy that wasn’t around much”. But up to now, you have shown me that you are more than that. I know that its a subject not to be taken lightly and its something you should only be doing with someone you care about, but I don’t know if you can really say that we never will. Its not like we haven’t come close on a couple of occasions. That is like saying what we have won’t last, and that scares me a bit. I think we do have a connection, and maybe I am way off base here, this is something I could see going on for a longer time.

School is important to me, and I think you understand that, and that is why its good, in a way, that you aren’t always here, because it gives me time to focus on school, without feeling guilty for not spending time with you. In learning what is important to someone, you learn a lot about their character, and what they want out of life. You have always been honest with me about that and I appreciate it more than I think you will know.

If I wasn’t already, I’m falling for you now. You aren’t just some pipeline guy to me, right now you are just the kind of person I want and need.


“So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories for us to see
I beg don't leave me…
…Please tell me what we have is real” – .Seize the Day .. Avenged Sevenfold.

There was a cucumber, a pickle, and a penis sitting aroundtalking about how their lives sucked.

The cucumber says "Man, my life sucks. When I get big, fat,and Juicy, they cut me up and stick me on a salad".

The pickle looks at him and says, "You think you have it bad? When I get big, fat, and juicy, they stick me in vinegar, put spices on me, and stick me in a jar".

The penis looks at him and says, "You think you have it rough? When I get big, fat, and juicy, they stick a rubber tarp on my head, stick me in a dark room, and bang my head against the wall until I throw up and pass out!"

~~~~~~~~~~

classic...

and on a more...serious note, well maybe not more serious, just not a joke, check out this video. Its about an autistic high school student who managed his school bball team. Very inspiring and heart warming...hopefully I will get to work with kids like him (eventually!)