.be happy for this moment.this moment is your life.

full of regret right now. and i really shouldn't be. i was just an idiot. it was within my grasp, and something kept me from hanging on. there is still hope. but i don't know if i have the strenght to wait. and trust. i'm torn. i've finally moved on fully. but not to anything. because i didn't do a certain thing. why? there has to be a reason. i just wish i knew now. i can't help wondering if it would have made a difference. either way it would have been out of my control. but then i wouldn't feel so lost. i would know i did what i could to push this in the right direction. but what if he didn't want it to be more than what it was. i just wish i could see him again. and see if it was just passion and need. or there is a chance for something more. apparently there might have been before. but what about now? hmmmm



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and on another note, if you haven't heard the song "The General" by dispatch - go listen to it now. my new fav.

p.s. is anyone out there still reading this? or am i just doing it for me now (not that is was for anyone else before...)

By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime..
An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?
"And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart-
and she will do everything with only two hands.
"The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish.
"But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days.
"The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed,
"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.
The Lord replied,
"Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate.
"The angel then noticed something,
and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,
her loneliness, her grief and her pride.
"The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."
And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

~~~to all my girls-you are amazing, you rock my world~~~

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the following is an excerpt from http://waiterrant.net/ Have a read...it is definitely thought provoking.


Bonhoeffer would say when we help each other that is God helping us. The human heart is moved by weakness not by strength. It is our brokenness, not power, that binds us together. Perhaps our weakness will be our salvation. Maybe that is how God “can be with us and help us.”

After reading Angels and Demons (really excellent book btw), I though alot about how things were created in opposites - good and evil, light and dark, matter and antimatter, protons and electrons etc... without one there can't be the other, b/c really how can we say that something is "light" without knowing what "dark" is?

I'm sorry for the lack of a better post, but my brain is toast for the weekend (so much work and stress already)

ambigram....look at it upsidedown - it blows my mind!!! 

why must we turn a blind eye...are we in that much of a rush, or do we just choose to ignore....
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/21409100/