Thursday, March 18, 2004
Why?
Why is the year almost over...I'm not ready for 2nd year.
Why can't i be more sure of what i want to do with my life?
why can't i be more confident, and stop caring so much about what other people think of me?
Why did it take me till the end of first semester to actually come out of my room in rez...the people on my floor are amazing, fun...and are not the type of people that would pressure me to drink. I got here, and after the 1st weekend, had my ideas that thats what everyone else does - which is totally not true. Probably the majority of people...well maybe not the majority aren't into the whole getting smashed thing. I have made some really good friends, and met some very interesting people this year, and we have a blast together. They are a totally different group than either of my groups of friends from home, but i only wish i could have spent 1st semester with them too. I just wish i hadn't thought that if i went to hang out in the lounge that i would be pressured to drink, b4 i wanted to...grrr
Why can't I just talk to him???...why can't i stop being so self-conscious/shy etc etc and take a chance and just do it. that quote by mark twain (i think), is constantly running through my mind "20 years from now you will be more disappointed by what you DIDN'T do, than by what you did." ok, so i'm a chicken...enough said...that and that fact that i don't really know how to start a conversation with him...ya "hi" works pretty well i've been told...grrrr
Why won't my skin clear up? (you've all heard that one b4)
Why do i always get my "inspiration" for this when I'm walking to class, and then when i actually sit down to write...it never sounds the way i want it too.
Why are people pigs? when will they learn to wash their dishes, or at least do something with their left over kraft dinner, as opposed to leaving it in the pot for a week? and when will they learn to cover stuff when they put it in the microwave - especially when someone spends an hour cleaning it, when she didn't have too?
And well i'm on the subject...why can't people find a more constuctive way than war to resolve their differences?
why can't it be spring?...i'm beginning to really dislike the wind.
Why can't i just talk to him?
Why can't i be more sure of what i want to do with my life?
why can't i be more confident, and stop caring so much about what other people think of me?
Why did it take me till the end of first semester to actually come out of my room in rez...the people on my floor are amazing, fun...and are not the type of people that would pressure me to drink. I got here, and after the 1st weekend, had my ideas that thats what everyone else does - which is totally not true. Probably the majority of people...well maybe not the majority aren't into the whole getting smashed thing. I have made some really good friends, and met some very interesting people this year, and we have a blast together. They are a totally different group than either of my groups of friends from home, but i only wish i could have spent 1st semester with them too. I just wish i hadn't thought that if i went to hang out in the lounge that i would be pressured to drink, b4 i wanted to...grrr
Why can't I just talk to him???...why can't i stop being so self-conscious/shy etc etc and take a chance and just do it. that quote by mark twain (i think), is constantly running through my mind "20 years from now you will be more disappointed by what you DIDN'T do, than by what you did." ok, so i'm a chicken...enough said...that and that fact that i don't really know how to start a conversation with him...ya "hi" works pretty well i've been told...grrrr
Why won't my skin clear up? (you've all heard that one b4)
Why do i always get my "inspiration" for this when I'm walking to class, and then when i actually sit down to write...it never sounds the way i want it too.
Why are people pigs? when will they learn to wash their dishes, or at least do something with their left over kraft dinner, as opposed to leaving it in the pot for a week? and when will they learn to cover stuff when they put it in the microwave - especially when someone spends an hour cleaning it, when she didn't have too?
And well i'm on the subject...why can't people find a more constuctive way than war to resolve their differences?
why can't it be spring?...i'm beginning to really dislike the wind.
Why can't i just talk to him?
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