.be happy for this moment.this moment is your life.

I have come to the realization that i get way to absorbed in school life. I got an email from my grandpa today wishing me happy easter and good luck on my exams. It made me realize that the only time I think about anything besides school related stuff is when i get emails from family or actual letters. That and calling home every sunday. I don't think shallow is exactly the right word. Maybe more narrow-minded??? I hate not knowing what is going on away from where I am, yet i barely do anything to correct that. I dont have a CLUE what is going on in the world at all. I used to read the paper at breakfast every morning...now i read text books - oh so exciting. The only way i find out about anything is the limited news i hear on the radio in the morning while i get ready, and from ppl on my floor,who actually know what is going on. That still doesn't solve the problem, however, that I don't have a clue about the little things that go on at my house, in my brothers life etc. These past few months i think i've kinda lost sight at times of the things that really matter to me, and in life in general. the fact that i can't send a quick email to a close friend unless i have a specific question for them...but can sit doing nothing (procrastinating in other words) for longer than i should, makes me feel terrible. but at the same time, there isnt really much exciting to report in my life...so maybe thats why. My life seems to revolve around studying, examining my face for signs of improvement (no matter how sad it sounds...that is what it has come down to), and going clubing occasionally (where nothing exciting/worthy of reporting happens - good thing i don't pay cover thanks to the ski club membership, or drink...otherwise it would be a waste of $$$). no matter how cliche it sound i think we (or i am at least) are losing sight (and have been for a while) of what really matters in life - friends, family, and just being HAPPY. nothing more is really important.

(and on a side note - anyone know what is up w/ vance's life - he said it was a long story...and that i would find out later....but can anyone give me the gist of it????)