.be happy for this moment.this moment is your life.

So, went out with Adrian last night for ice cream at the Marble Slab (where you pick your ice cream, and then you can get stuff mixed into it...mmmm) So good. Kinda interesting though, the girl was like "is this together", and maybe this was the wrong way to go about it, but I was like "are you paying?" So, he did...but maybe i should have just said no??? I don't know...w/e. So we were walking back to lister, cuz we had planned to watch a movie at his place. Then he stops and says, "there's something I need to talk to you about"...and i'm thinking, yup...this can't be good. Basically, he said that he had been in a 2 year relationship b4 coming here, and they had been broken up for 2 months, so he had realized that he wasn't ready for a relationship yet. I think i must have looked pretty sad...cuz he was like, "I feel so bad and I still want us to be friends..." (classic line...I know.) I thanked him for being honest, b/c I would have asked soon, anyway, b4 I got too much more emotionally invovled. I don't know how good I am at covering up my feelings, but I *think* i seemed ok with it. and like I said to him...it was non-committal, so really i couldn't be that upset. We ended up going to watch a movie anyway...Dogma, and then he walked me back here (like usual, except it wasn't...things weren't awkward, just different).

So there you have it, nothing has changed, so don't worry. Denise is still single like usual, and as many "boyfriends" (though its not that many in relation to some people), she will probably end up a bachelorette with 25 cats...lol...seriously, as much as I want to be upset with him, I can't. This is the nicest guy I have ever met, and I think maybe it was for the best, at least for now for him.

Its got me wondering though, these past 2 (???) weeks...I mean, we talked on msn and when we got together, but the conversations were never that great, and we tended to run out of things to say, and it got a bit awkward...I know i'm not *that* much of a talker but i can't help but wonder, Am I ever going to find the guy that i truly click with, and never run out of things to talk to him about?