Sunday, November 07, 2004
Marnie i love you to pieces!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish i was still at home...but now you have an excuse to make a road trip...my door is always open (that goes for everyone btw...) I can't wait to see you this weekend...lauren and i were thinking some bridget jones action if you are up for it...and we should go out for lunch or dinner too. I miss you hun...and i will be back in calgary in 2 1/2 years for good again i hope!! Miss you!!
I've been thinking alot about how much life has changed these past two years, and how much we have all grown up...even though there are times when i really dont feel old, even if i'm going to be 19 is 23 (oh yea!!) days. I'm just in complete disbelief of that fact alone. I mean really, i still don't feel like i'm that old, even though i am full aware that i've grown up alot, even these past 2 months having to cook for myself, clean, pay bills etc. Its insane...I'm perfectly comfortable with it and i love my independence, but at the same time, the fact that i will never truely "live at home" again scares me...sure i can go home to visit and i'm always welcome there, and it seems like nothing has changed, but it will never again be like the past 18 years of my life, when that is where i went home to sleep every night. Ever year, my room looks less and less like "mine" because i am constantly bring stuff up here (as in edmonton), and it looks more and more like a new home...
i have also been thinking about what life would be like had i not made certain choices or met certain ppl. Like lauren for instance...if she had never moved to calgary with her mom, then we never would have met her, kari never would have showed her around rta back in gr 8, and we never would have had that same group of friends (each of us brings so much to it...even if at the moment its spread over a whole continent pretty much). I may not have ever considered coming up to u of a to take eng, and talk lauren into taking it with me...and telling her she could do it. I wouldn't have met carolyn and then who knows who id be living with right now. I wouldn't have realized eng wasnt for me, (and yet lauren would love it) and maybe i'd be better off on another career path. This is just one piece of the whole puzzle of my life...everyone i have crossed paths with over the course of my 18 years has had some kind of impact or influence on me, and shaped me into who i am now...I love each and every one of you to pieces, and i don't know what i would have done with out your support, kind words, and all the unspoken communication...that sometimes means more than anything. I'm scared out of my mind for what the future holds...but there are ppl that i know will always be in it no matter what, b/c with out them i would never be there in the first place.
and to end on a less emotional note...considering i'm getting teary eyed (yeah, maybe its just me) writing this), you girls may be interested to check out this blog i stumbled across during the latest procrastination...its written by a guy believe it or not...one of the more interesting ones (about "hes just not into you")is further down the page...so make sure you scroll down to see it
http://hooizz.blogspot.com/
It makes for an interesting read, if you have the time.
I've been thinking alot about how much life has changed these past two years, and how much we have all grown up...even though there are times when i really dont feel old, even if i'm going to be 19 is 23 (oh yea!!) days. I'm just in complete disbelief of that fact alone. I mean really, i still don't feel like i'm that old, even though i am full aware that i've grown up alot, even these past 2 months having to cook for myself, clean, pay bills etc. Its insane...I'm perfectly comfortable with it and i love my independence, but at the same time, the fact that i will never truely "live at home" again scares me...sure i can go home to visit and i'm always welcome there, and it seems like nothing has changed, but it will never again be like the past 18 years of my life, when that is where i went home to sleep every night. Ever year, my room looks less and less like "mine" because i am constantly bring stuff up here (as in edmonton), and it looks more and more like a new home...
i have also been thinking about what life would be like had i not made certain choices or met certain ppl. Like lauren for instance...if she had never moved to calgary with her mom, then we never would have met her, kari never would have showed her around rta back in gr 8, and we never would have had that same group of friends (each of us brings so much to it...even if at the moment its spread over a whole continent pretty much). I may not have ever considered coming up to u of a to take eng, and talk lauren into taking it with me...and telling her she could do it. I wouldn't have met carolyn and then who knows who id be living with right now. I wouldn't have realized eng wasnt for me, (and yet lauren would love it) and maybe i'd be better off on another career path. This is just one piece of the whole puzzle of my life...everyone i have crossed paths with over the course of my 18 years has had some kind of impact or influence on me, and shaped me into who i am now...I love each and every one of you to pieces, and i don't know what i would have done with out your support, kind words, and all the unspoken communication...that sometimes means more than anything. I'm scared out of my mind for what the future holds...but there are ppl that i know will always be in it no matter what, b/c with out them i would never be there in the first place.
and to end on a less emotional note...considering i'm getting teary eyed (yeah, maybe its just me) writing this), you girls may be interested to check out this blog i stumbled across during the latest procrastination...its written by a guy believe it or not...one of the more interesting ones (about "hes just not into you")is further down the page...so make sure you scroll down to see it
http://hooizz.blogspot.com/
It makes for an interesting read, if you have the time.
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