Saturday, October 01, 2005
i'm not impulsive
thats the problem
and why i'm making such a big deal out of this, i have no idea
there is so much other sh*t going on in the world...and its not that i don't know how lucky i am - i really think i do, i'm a pretty emotional person anyway. but why is it the one thing i'm really missing (or the one who can break my already scarred hearth) is just a phone call away, i'm just to chicken to do it
the friend who gave me his number said to do it when i'm drunk. but that doesn't solve the problem, and thats not the way i want it to be. i always want things to happen differently, but i keep having the freaking "college experiences"...my 1 scandalous act for the year. thats not what i want. i want what my friend has with his friend. is that too much to ask???
thats the problem
and why i'm making such a big deal out of this, i have no idea
there is so much other sh*t going on in the world...and its not that i don't know how lucky i am - i really think i do, i'm a pretty emotional person anyway. but why is it the one thing i'm really missing (or the one who can break my already scarred hearth) is just a phone call away, i'm just to chicken to do it
the friend who gave me his number said to do it when i'm drunk. but that doesn't solve the problem, and thats not the way i want it to be. i always want things to happen differently, but i keep having the freaking "college experiences"...my 1 scandalous act for the year. thats not what i want. i want what my friend has with his friend. is that too much to ask???
Comments:
I know this is going to seem lame, but you should do what I'm doing. After some recent events, I've decided to to start what I call JIP....the Jacqui Improvement Project......you could have DIP. My plan is to become more outgoing, take more risks, etc. I know it seems kind of weird, but it's helping me really open up. People have already commented that I'm more outgoing, so I suppose it's working. At least I like to think so! I hope all is well in Edmonton. I'm doing well out here in Vic, but I miss all of you crazy Beav kids! Hope to talk to you soon!
~Jacqui
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~Jacqui
