Sunday, November 13, 2005
turmoil
I'm in the weirdest mood right now
I got back to etown today, and went to get groceries with my mum. Then i just kinda unpacked and listened to my new cds (death cab...plans = new fav). I just kinda felt like i didn't want to be back. I was missing home and my girls there in less then an hour of being back. Not that i don't have good friends here too...its just different when the 2 I live with have their boyfriends, and the other 3 are kinda harder to see since only 1 has a car, and we live all over. i don't really know how to explain how i've been feeling all night. I kinda got used to being home, and even if i didn't see marnie and kari all that much, it felt...i guess....right. not that this feels wrong. and its not cuz i'm not used to it. I've lived away from home for 2 years. i just don't get it. i think its just one of those days were i feel like crying. i dunno.
anyway, enough depressing talk. went shopping on friday, and then spent the day at kari's on sat. got her to show me some make-up techniques :) now i just hope i don't break out b/c of it. we watched "its all gone pete tong"- which i didn't know anything about, but it ended up being suprisingly deep in amongst all the swearing, drugs, and alcohol haha - and "donnie darko" which is the most bizzare movie, i'm still so confused - think there was too much time travel stuff going on. if anyone understands it, feel free to explain!
being home was nice, but it makes me worry about my mom. she's so worried that my bro is getting into trouble, and he's constantly talking back to her and generally acting like an idiot. its not like he hasn';t always been like that. he's never really understood the concept of respect. but its getting worse. he's lying, and *shudder* looking at porn on the computer (ahhh history...tell you such interesting things). when my mom found out, i thought she was going to flip out completely. but all she said was "my brother used to have a playboy under his bed". we tried to figure out how he even searched for some of the stuff he found (some tame... and so REALLY raunchy) and had no idea - he definitely didn't google it from what we could tell anyway. i don't know whats goign on with him. i was packing my cds today and one was missing, so i went to ask him if he had it. he's like, oh i might. he found it and handed it to me but didn't say anything. i was like what??? "you can borrow my cd's if you ask" and gave him a look, and nothing - just his little smirk. honestly. i don't know what is up with him. i just hope my mom survives until i'm back again. apparetly there is very little "giggling" when i'm not around.
seriously what is wrong with me....why am i crying???
I got back to etown today, and went to get groceries with my mum. Then i just kinda unpacked and listened to my new cds (death cab...plans = new fav). I just kinda felt like i didn't want to be back. I was missing home and my girls there in less then an hour of being back. Not that i don't have good friends here too...its just different when the 2 I live with have their boyfriends, and the other 3 are kinda harder to see since only 1 has a car, and we live all over. i don't really know how to explain how i've been feeling all night. I kinda got used to being home, and even if i didn't see marnie and kari all that much, it felt...i guess....right. not that this feels wrong. and its not cuz i'm not used to it. I've lived away from home for 2 years. i just don't get it. i think its just one of those days were i feel like crying. i dunno.
anyway, enough depressing talk. went shopping on friday, and then spent the day at kari's on sat. got her to show me some make-up techniques :) now i just hope i don't break out b/c of it. we watched "its all gone pete tong"- which i didn't know anything about, but it ended up being suprisingly deep in amongst all the swearing, drugs, and alcohol haha - and "donnie darko" which is the most bizzare movie, i'm still so confused - think there was too much time travel stuff going on. if anyone understands it, feel free to explain!
being home was nice, but it makes me worry about my mom. she's so worried that my bro is getting into trouble, and he's constantly talking back to her and generally acting like an idiot. its not like he hasn';t always been like that. he's never really understood the concept of respect. but its getting worse. he's lying, and *shudder* looking at porn on the computer (ahhh history...tell you such interesting things). when my mom found out, i thought she was going to flip out completely. but all she said was "my brother used to have a playboy under his bed". we tried to figure out how he even searched for some of the stuff he found (some tame... and so REALLY raunchy) and had no idea - he definitely didn't google it from what we could tell anyway. i don't know whats goign on with him. i was packing my cds today and one was missing, so i went to ask him if he had it. he's like, oh i might. he found it and handed it to me but didn't say anything. i was like what??? "you can borrow my cd's if you ask" and gave him a look, and nothing - just his little smirk. honestly. i don't know what is up with him. i just hope my mom survives until i'm back again. apparetly there is very little "giggling" when i'm not around.
seriously what is wrong with me....why am i crying???
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