.be happy for this moment.this moment is your life.

I just got back from dinner/dessert with some of my really good friends; I would go so far as to say my best friends here in Edmonton. And, as we usually do, we talk a lot about relationships, and frustrations related to lack of them/potential of them etc. Along with this, and the “slap slap” in the comments a few posts back, I realize how lucky I am to have the friends I do, to keep me sane and make me laugh about totally random things. “I wouldn't really mind waiting as long as I knew when it was going to come. It's the uncertainty that sucks.” I think this is huge; a huge part of what I am feeling. It is my uncertainty more than anything that makes me question things. But then I go back to everything I do have and that I have going for me, and I realize that I need to sit back and just trust that everything will work out for me in the end. I truly want to believe this, but I will admit I am a stubborn, picky, impatient at times person, and I need to stop being that way all the time. I need to start to sit back, enjoy the ride, smell the roses etc. etc. I really do have so much to look forward to and enjoy right now.

I do consider myself a spiritual, but not necessarily religious, person. Looking at one of my friends who still goes through similar things, and yet she has the strength to wait it out because of her faith. I wonder if that is what I need? Or if I just need to get away from school and do things for myself…go the places (mountains) that make me feel spiritual. I do believe in having faith in things, and a form of destiny/fate. But at the same time I do think that I can influence my life and change the course of it. I just need to start living one of my favorite quotes…

Seize the day, squeeze the moment.

Or was it Carpe the Diem…seize the…carp. :)
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Things I want to/will do once I am done school and have a job:

Go to the gym/pool after work 4-5 days a week.
Go skiing as many times as I can in the winter.
Have dinner with my parents at least 2x a month (if I live in the same city).
Have a bar night with the girls…or just a stay-in girls night at least 2x a month.
Go see a movie with my mom 1x a month.
Spend a day with my brother…let him pick what we do.
Write letters (real letters) to friends and grandparents.
Take the time to decorate my home the way I want it done.
Learn about gardening/types of plants.
Get a cat and dog. (frick…I have to find time to go to the gym and walk the dog…)
Watch all the movies I haven’t seen that are on my list. (hmm, I should post that list!)
Take time off to travel – BC, the rest of Canada and abroad…i.e. Greece.